Listening for Angels
Lately, I’ve been thinking a lot about angels. That may sound surprising coming from a Reconstructionist rabbi. After all, I have said many times from this bima that I do not believe in a supernatural God as described in the Bible—a God who can suspend the laws of nature, who is all-knowing, all powerful and ever-present. It took me some time to claim a God belief that did not depend on a literalist depiction from the Bible and I owe a huge intellectual/spiritual debt to my teachers, Mordecai Kaplan, Harold Kushner, Zalman Schachter-Shalomi and Arthur Green, among others, for helping me figure that out.
This sermon was delivered on Kol Nidrei, 5785 at Adat Shalom Reconstructionist Congregation in Bethesda, MD, where Rabbi Sid is the Founding Rabbi.
Compared with figuring out what “God” means, angels are a lot simpler to understand. Angels do not get starring roles in the Biblical narrative. They are, at best, supporting actors in the Torah. But, when angels appear in the narrative, it is always for a reason. The Hebrew word, malach, derives from the Hebrew word, lech, “to walk” so a malach, an angel, is a messenger, sent by God for a prescribed purpose. The etymology from Greek is similar because angelos also means, “messenger”.
The first appearance of an angel in the Torah is in Genesis, ch. 16. Upon discovering that she could not have children, Sarah gives one of her maid-servants, Hagar, to Abraham as a concubine. But once Hagar is pregnant, Sarah is crazed by jealousy. Abraham does not defend Hagar and allows Sarah to treat her harshly. Hagar runs away into the desert, where she is unlikely to survive. In a parallel version of this story, recounted in ch. 21, Hagar has already given birth and, when she runs out of water, she places her son under a bush to die. It is then that an angel appears to her, shows her to a well and predicts that her son will be the father of a great nation. The angel urges Hagar to return to Abraham’s house.
Three powerful lessons are delivered with this one angelic “mercy mission”. The son will be called Ishmael, meaning, God paid heed to Hagar’s suffering. Hagar then creates a name for this God—El Roi, literally, “a God who sees me”. This Egyptian woman of low status—a handmaiden to Sarah—is elevated by the angel’s visit and says, “I am worthy of being seen”. And finally, the angel seems to understand a lesson that Israelis and Arabs are still struggling to achieve—Abraham’s offspring, one, the line of Isaac, and one, the line of Ishmael, need to figure out how to live, side by side, in peace!
A second example. In Genesis ch. 22, it is an angel who stops Abraham from sacrificing his son, Isaac, on the altar on Mt. Moriah. Up to that point, Abraham is prepared to engage in a practice, not uncommon in the ancient Near East, of sacrificing one’s “first fruits” in order to insure future bounty. The angel helps Abraham realize that a loving and merciful God cannot possibly want a father to slaughter his first-born son. It is not surprising that these two Biblical narratives are chosen by the rabbis as the Torah readings for Rosh haShana. Each story contains a powerful message of sins of commission and sins of omission. Each, also provide examples of repentance.
A third appearance of angels is in Genesis ch. 28, as Jacob journeys to re-encounter his brother, Esau, years after Jacob tricked him out of his birthright. In a dream, in his journey to that fateful encounter, Jacob sees angels ascending and descending a ladder to heaven. The angels do not speak in the dream but the rabbis have a field day interpreting the meaning of the angels. One commentary suggests that Jacob comes to understand that the path to holy/ethical living is attained, not in one fell swoop, but one rung at a time. Jacob has some work to do if he will be worthy of God’s promise to make him the father of great nation. That, most certainly, will include reconciling with his brother, Esau.
What do these Biblical stories mean for us? I imagine a large number of you here this evening might question if angels play any role in your life at all. Then again, I quite intentionally titled this sermon, not: “Do Angels Exist?” but rather, “Listening for Angels”. Here is why.
When Jacob awakens from his dream he says: “achen yesh adonay bamakom ha-zeh, v’anochi lo yadati”. One translation renders this as: “Surely, God is in this place and I did not even know it!” Jacob has had a “eureka” moment that reveals to him some truth about what he is destined to do with his life and how he might realize that destiny. It took a dream to make him fully conscious of his path forward and, when he awakens from that dream, he acknowledges a power in the universe—“God” in his language—that is giving him a life-changing message. Abraham had a similar experience. And, so will Moses.
But if we don’t believe that God can actually speak to a human being, what the Bible seems to be describing here is Jacob’s “dawning of consciousness”. Nowhere in the Bible do we have a passage that so validates a non-supernatural approach to angels and to God. One moment, Jacob is at a campsite on the road from Beersheva to Haran. The next moment, Jacob says, “OMG!-Something happened here last night. The universe (or God) is speaking to me and I suddenly have greater clarity about my life’s purpose.”
My friends: We are Jacob. In a few chapters, after a night of wrestling with another angel, Jacob is re-named, Israel. We are also, Israel. Angels are bringing us messages all the time. The problem is: Most of the time, we don’t take notice.
Let’s recall the verse uttered by Jacob: Yesh adonay bamakom ha-zeh, v’anochi lo yadati. Here is another way that we might translate that verse: “There is an important “angel message” coming to me at this very moment, in this very place, and I almost did not take note of it.” The early 20th century Irish writer, William Butler Yates, had a beautiful way of conveying the same truth. He wrote: “The world is full of magical things, patiently waiting on our senses to become sharper.” (repeat)
What do our angel messengers look like? They take many forms. It could be a teacher who shares some deep insight into a problem you have been pondering for a long time. It could be a doctor who points out that you need to eat healthier and exercise more. It could be a therapist who helps you see how you are engaging in dysfunctional patterns of behavior that are a source of your unhappiness. It could be one of your children who is trying to tell you, however inelegantly, that you need to let them make their own life decisions, even when you think they are making a mistake. It could be a coach, mentor or friend who sees potential in you that you do not see in yourself but might open up for you new horizons for accomplishment and self-fulfillment. It could be a loved one or a member of your family, from whom you are estranged, but who very much wants to find a way to restore the bonds of affection that once existed between the two of you.
Each of us can do a better job of heeding angels when they come our way. But sometimes we are just not ready for the message. When I was in rabbinical school at the RRC in the late 1970’s, our class had a chance to take a course with Reb Zalman Schachter-Shalomi, the founder of the Jewish Renewal movement. Reb Zalman was a Lubavitcher Hasid who immigrated to the U.S. from Vienna during WWII. After the war, he and Rabbi Shlomo Carlebach were deployed by the Lubavitcher Rebbe, Menachem Schneerson, to do outreach to Jewish students on college campuses across the country. They were quite the team! But, by the early 1960’s, Reb Zalman’s engagement with hippie youth culture and mystic traditions of other religions, took him out of the Lubavitch orbit as he charted his own path towards a relevant Jewish mysticism for North American Jews.
We were excited to study with Reb Zalman at RRC. He was a much sought after Jewish teacher and he was, most definitely, an “original”. His ability to integrate European Jewish Orthodox practice with New Age relevance was unmatched. Reb Zalman moved to Philadelphia to teach at Temple University and founded P’nai Or, which would become the seed of the Jewish Renewal movement. The RRC recruited Reb Zalman to teach one course to rabbinical students. Our class was chosen.
And yet, when I reflected on what I learned from Reb Zalman during that semester’s course, I was embarrassed to admit to myself, that it was very little. It was my fault. Reb Zalman’s Torah did not match up with my personal spiritual and intellectual frameworks and I lacked the maturity to leave my assumptions behind and open myself up to new and novel perspectives. So, I lost out on an important opportunity to learn from a world-class, spiritual master.
Fast Forward some 35 years later: I was invited to keynote the annual Ohala conference that convenes Jewish renewal rabbis in Boulder, CO. Reb Zalman, at that time, held the World Wisdom Chair at the Naropa Institue in Boulder. The annual gathering of Jewish Renewal rabbis took place in Boulder because Reb Zalman continued to be the movement’s Rebbe. My assignment at that 2014 conference was somewhat daunting. I was asked to speak about Jewish Renewal after Reb Zalman even though Reb Zalman was still, very much alive. Reb Zalman passed away six months later. But for my talk, Reb Zalman sat, front and center, all decked out, as he did on special occasions, in his shtramel and kapota, the large fur hat and black overcoat worn by Lubavitcher chasidim. It was pretty intimidating for me.
Years after I was ordained, I read Reb Zalman’s books with a level of appreciation I could not muster when I was in his class. I know that it changed my prayer life and revolutionized the way I led services. I was fortunate to have some private time with Reb Zalman before my talk. I felt the need to apologize to Reb Zalman for being so unable to appreciate his Torah when I was in his class. Reb Zalman was more than gracious, simply observing that, as we evolve as human beings, we become open to new forms of knowledge and wisdom.
I thought of Jacob’s words from Genesis 28: Yesh adonay bamakom ha-zeh, v’anochi lo yadati- I had a teacher who was sent as an angel for me, and I did not even know it at the time.
Why do I share this story? Because, I suspect, everyone in this room has received an “angel message” in her or his life, that you missed, just as I did. It may have come from someone close to you or from someone, totally unexpected. Take a moment to think of one such message and its source. Your homework for these holy days, is to remember that message and revisit it. If appropriate, you might even think about approaching that angel, and thanking them for their message. Consider it your “teshuva-act/repentance-act” for this year.
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I want to offer one other way of understanding the title of this sermon, “Listening for Angels”. I am indebted to another one of my teachers for this, Rabbi Larry Kushner, not be confused with Rabbi Harold Kushner, who wrote the classic, When Bad Things Happen to Good People. Larry Kushner was the first American rabbi who made Jewish mysticism accessible to a wide audience starting in the 1970’s.
Larry wrote an entire book about the one sentence I quoted from Jacob after his dream. The book was titled, God was in this Place. In the book, Rabbi Kushner offers seven unique ways of understanding the verse, “God was in this place and I failed to take notice”, each interpretation informed by a different rabbinic commentary on the verse.
Kushner’s seventh interpretation was inspired by the work of Moshe de Leon, a 13th century Spanish rabbi, who is credited with writing the Zohar. de Leon suggested that the word anochi, which means “I”, might well be another name for God. This changes the entire meaning of the verse. It is no longer: “God was here and I didn’t even know it” but rather, “God was here and I now understand that part of that God is in me.”
In Larry Kushner’s framing of the teaching from the Zohar, God is our sense of self, our innermost essence. Understanding our inner essence, our soul, what we are meant to do with the life we have been given, is what it means to “know God”. Kushner writes: “The essence of spirituality is a return to the self.” For Kushner, the “self” is a deep understanding of who we are and how we might find meaning in our lives. Kushner ends the passage this way: “We are agents, instruments of God’s presence. We are not at odds with the Self of the Universe; we are part of it.”
What a remarkable idea! Kushner is suggesting that we, ourselves, are angels, capable of bringing aspirational messages into the world as well as to ourselves!
There is a Chasidic story that tells of a poor Jewish peasant who has a recurring dream about a great treasure buried at the foot of a bridge that leads into the city of Lublin. He tells his wife of his dream and she chastises him for his foolishness and tells him to tend to his chickens. But the dream comes back to him, night after night. Finally, he begs his wife to let him journey the 50 miles to Lublin to find his treasure. She relents.
The peasant walks for three days until he comes to the bridge of his dreams. But there is an armed guard at the bridge. He waits several hours and realizes he must engage with the guard. He comes out from behind his hiding spot, offers the guard some of the sweets his wife gave him for the journey and he proceeds to tell the guard about his dream. He ends by asking the guard to give him permission to dig up the ground around the bridge to find his treasure, promising to share the proceeds with him. The guard laughs and tells him that he cannot let him do that. Besides, he says, you are a foolish man for wasting your time on a long journey just because you had a dream. The guard continued: “I have had a recurring dream about a great treasure buried under the stove of a Jewish chicken farmer in the Polish countryside. Do you think I could afford to take time off from my job to chase that dream?”
The Jewish peasant immediately understands. It was an “angel message” from an unexpected source!He races back to his wife and home and proceeds to dig up the earth around the stove in his house. Sure enough, he finds the treasure.
The story is used to teach that often, that which we long for, that which we will travel across continents to find, or spend thousands of dollars to acquire, may well be right in our own backyard. A valuable “angel message” for all of us.
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One of the themes I have come back to again and again in recent years is the observation that the technological changes that have revolutionized our world may have robbed us of the ability to find inner peace, personal fulfillment and live a life of deep spirituality. It is hard not to be affected by the anxiety, anger and polarization that surrounds us.
I believe though, that the wisdom and practices of Judaism and the kind of spiritual community that we have created here at Adat Shalom, provide an antidote to the toxicity of our world. A large part of that antidote, which I hope you can begin to take into your mind and hearts this Yom Kippur, are the subtle messages of angels that come to you every day. Judaism calls it kol dmama daka, “a small, quiet voice” –a line that actually appears in the Unetaneh Tokef prayer on Rosh haShana. Kol dmama daka refers to voices from on high that speak to us, not in thunder, lightning and sea-splitting miracles, but in the “small, quiet voice” that we hear with our heart, and not only with our ears. The voices of angels that tell us to be kinder to each other; to live life with joy and purpose; and to count the numerous blessings that we, too often, take for granted.
Angels are whispering this message to us in so many different ways. Perhaps the shofar blasts that we heard last week were to remind us of the words of William Butler Yates “The world is full of magical things, patiently waiting on our senses to become sharper.”
May it be so in the coming year for each of us!